Puso ko ay Siya

 When you want to be writer but do not have enough skill yet to tell the world that you want to be writer? What are really the qualifications of a writer, or do writers actually have to be a writer, what I might thinking is the set of skills a good writer must have? I am a writer now, because I can write, even maybe an elementary can only understand, or maybe someone who is too bored to read these things, but anyway, I am writing for myself, I am actually afraid someone is reading these nonsense. Anyways, I am writing whatever what comes out of my mind, I do underestimate myself very much, because as I am remembering myself when it comes to writing things, I do have a very little improvement, I guess.  Now, I am studying, I really want to do this things, but there is just a catch, you what? it is not easy, there are lot of things, to do, in studying, especially studying law. I am a law student, I am doing this, why? I really do not know right now, I am still clueless, I just k...

 I have to write now, right now.  I have to tell you stories which I do not know it will help someone who will read this, I want to tell you stories of my frustrations, I've learned that I so much to learn about sentence building, I do not know how to use, was, and were, I do not even know the right constructions in positive and negative way, I just write anything I know.  The basics. I do not even know if I know the basic. I entered law school already, I was bumped by the reality that I was way beyond on learning the basics, I still doing it, I must do it, I actually, do not do anything to improve myself, or maybe I just not seeing it, I choose to play games that to continue because I exhausted my self already and that I do not know where to start again. I know, people are tend to experience this, and that is why, I am not stopping, I just pausing to the reality, the more I keep on doing it, there is nothing coming to my mind, that is why I chose to pause.  I am a d...

 who said it is easy, no one says it will be easy, in the moment that I realize it is not easy, then I can certainly presumed that it will be hard, until I reach to that point, that it was worth having. What do I mean by saying it is hard, until I was already there. Is it about doubtful, it is part of the process, and the hardship in life, that you will certainly come to the point that you doubt yourself, if you are really doing well, and that those times you choose not to pursue your dream, or those times that you choose to have a break, made you even think or be in the state of doubtfulness. Whenever I choose to have a break, even for the fact that I totally know that I must instead of exploiting the time given by Lord to studying, ended doing unproductive day, but I must disagree to that, I should, and not be in the state of doubtfulness.  Yes I did it, I did it because I am exhausted already, I want to drop it just for a moment, knowing that I should have spent it in learn...

 What makes yourself life burning for something in your life,  there is difference between dreaming and actually doing what it takes to make that dreams come true. we have to dedicate yourself in achieving that goal of yours, There will be times that it sucks, it is so tiring to do it, but at the end of the day, the time that was spent which is used for for achieving that goal is fulfilling. There will be a lot of times that you do not know if you really doing what is right, there will be a lot of times questioning yourself in doing these things, you will doubt yourself, do we have to quit? do you have that strength, that is the answer, the Lord gave you that time but you did not use it for achieving that goal you keep on telling yourself to achieve. The Lord always there to give you time and strength you just need to use it efficiently.  So what do we need to do now, let do it. Thank you.

Fight When will you start, and when will you fight? A kind of fight almost assure your win, is there such thing? They say knowing your enemy is winning half the battle, how about learning what you are, and knowing you are making your own enemy, life is just full of battles to fight, we do not know what will happen tomorrow, you do not know when you are really prepared for battle, the everyday that the Lord made, is always full of struggles and battles that we have to face, but it is also a blessing from above, knowing that you are alive, what do you really want in life, or are you keep on walking the day, because the Lord gave it to you, have you think of the things that will actually make the Lord happy, what are you for, what are we for? I actually starting to learn that I do not have any rights to tell, on how a person should live, a how person should act, Am I thinking that I do not have any rights to tell others what to do, because I myself I do not know what I am for, is it fair ...

 What is life waiting for me? The question I always ask for myself, I am doing what I need to do, in order to achieve where I want to be in the future? I also make an excuses that the Lord will all do the necessary things if He allow it to happen, but I know for sure, and that I can take it if what happen to me is purely effortless on my end.  I know that the Lord can do it, but I think He will not do it, what I am talking about is, that the Lord will not give you that specific prayer you want to be or to have if you did not work on it, maybe sometimes Lord grant it in the mere prayer, but at the very least you have done your effort on prayer on it, just wish to have it. But that is not usually the case, We act and then God do the rest, it does not mean that the Lord will always grant your wishes, sometimes he has much better, by saying that he does not want that particular wish to be granted on you, but he did not allow it to happen. there some time that we get what we sow, a...

 It is hard to know if you really are tired or just being demotivated or even procrastinating. But I'd like to remind myself that there are times that you just do not do what you need to do, that sometimes you just need to do it before you know that you are not really tired, especially when you are fully rested yourself and that you just can control yourself getting back to work, or the things you need to work on. There are things that we do, just to fake ourselves that we really done well.  I am writing anything that coming from my mind, and that I really do not know what to do say or write, I write anything. Today, I would like to share by the way, that I already started my study in law, I am officially enrolled and that we have started our class last week. it is very overwhelming, the volume of jobs that I need to do, other than that I do not have a job, and those things are piled up in my head. I realize that I like studying at the same time that this course I chose to be ...