What do you do when you are tired?

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 It is hard to know if you really are tired or just being demotivated or even procrastinating.

But I'd like to remind myself that there are times that you just do not do what you need to do, that sometimes you just need to do it before you know that you are not really tired, especially when you are fully rested yourself and that you just can control yourself getting back to work, or the things you need to work on.

There are things that we do, just to fake ourselves that we really done well. 

I am writing anything that coming from my mind, and that I really do not know what to do say or write, I write anything.


Today, I would like to share by the way, that I already started my study in law, I am officially enrolled and that we have started our class last week.

it is very overwhelming, the volume of jobs that I need to do, other than that I do not have a job, and those things are piled up in my head.

I realize that I like studying at the same time that this course I chose to be my path is very tiring, I just realize how tiring the loads of assigned cases and all the information that cannot easily understand by mere listening, but I guess a lots of works and dedication in order for me to succeed in this career.

those are few things I realized in just almost 2 weeks and not even 10 meetings for just 3 subjects are so much information that brought to brain.

Due to the overwhelming information, I am experience and buffering to myself, and that causes me to think that is it my brain still functioning well, is it capable of learning, and that I am thinking that these damages are acquired through my previous stressing and exploitation of myself, due to excessive drinking of alcohol and tiring nonsense things that I think is enjoyable that time, but I guess it has price to pay for me and that is my well being, and my physical capability, but anyway, I need to adjust, I believe I can do it, little by little I can do it, I am improving and that I still can improve and learn. 

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