What to right or write

 When you want to be writer but do not have enough skill yet to tell the world that you want to be writer?

What are really the qualifications of a writer, or do writers actually have to be a writer, what I might thinking is the set of skills a good writer must have?

I am a writer now, because I can write, even maybe an elementary can only understand, or maybe someone who is too bored to read these things, but anyway, I am writing for myself, I am actually afraid someone is reading these nonsense.

Anyways, I am writing whatever what comes out of my mind, I do underestimate myself very much, because as I am remembering myself when it comes to writing things, I do have a very little improvement, I guess. 

Now, I am studying, I really want to do this things, but there is just a catch, you what? it is not easy, there are lot of things, to do, in studying, especially studying law.

I am a law student, I am doing this, why? I really do not know right now, I am still clueless, I just know I want it, I just do not know if it's the right thing to do to my life, in order to be happy.

what is my happiness by the way, before entering to law school, I told myself that I want a job , that could help people, at the same time I have this kind of feeling that people look at me respectful person, and that I want to be a role model. I am not going to lie, that I want to be somehow, hold a great amount of money, but I want it to share it with others too.

I can assure myself with it, I know I can control myself, when it comes to handling money and that I am not a material person, those people who truly know me, will tell you that I am helping any person, that what I could.

I am indeed in the situation where I do not have any money, still I could tell that when I will have a enough money, I could help other people too.

I a sad person, because I have challenges in life, I have uncertainty in life, I have doubts and frustrations, but maybe it just part of what a person to become what he want to be, or maybe I am lazy as Fuck to settle those problems of mine. I would like to somehow, find in my inner self, that he will tell me , it is okay not to be okay right now, please keep on fighting what you know what is right, it does not mean, you are in the right, but it is actually the only thing you know what is right thing to do. who can tell what is right and what is wrong? people are suppose to be forbidden to judge other people what they act, so long as it does not violate any laws. the only judge I know is the Lord.