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 I have to write now, right now. 

I have to tell you stories which I do not know it will help someone who will read this,

I want to tell you stories of my frustrations, I've learned that I so much to learn about sentence building, I do not know how to use, was, and were, I do not even know the right constructions in positive and negative way, I just write anything I know. 

The basics.

I do not even know if I know the basic.

I entered law school already, I was bumped by the reality that I was way beyond on learning the basics, I still doing it, I must do it, I actually, do not do anything to improve myself, or maybe I just not seeing it, I choose to play games that to continue because I exhausted my self already and that I do not know where to start again.

I know, people are tend to experience this, and that is why, I am not stopping, I just pausing to the reality, the more I keep on doing it, there is nothing coming to my mind, that is why I chose to pause. 

I am a disappointment, I know that I should be doing my best, but still I am not doing it.

when will I realize that I am wasting my precious time, I am hard to my self, maybe someday, I will regret this, but I do not really know what to do.

what can I do, I am not doing my best. I still have many to offer. I know, I should. all of these are resulted from the pressure I am absorbing, but still keep praying, and believing that something is going to be better in the Lord's time.

but I still have to do it, because, failure or success the outcome will make me better.

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