Puso ko ay Siya

 I am not a person who is reliable to tell things about life, learnings and inspiration, but I guess since I have my own thoughts I would like to just write everything I want to say here in my Blog. Life and struggles are ought to be together, when life does not gave you challenges then life in not worth living, sometime we people do not have same capability and severity of struggles in life, that is why we say, the Lord gave you that problem and struggles in life maybe because he knows that you can make it through.  I believe in that, but sometime it is just our defense in ourselves just to keep on doing, and I feel like it is a frustrated approach in life, maybe we could say to ourselves that we can all have our strength to face challenges in life, give it all, then I will face it. The Lord's Holy Spirit is with us, whatever happens. the sun rises in every person in this world may we be bad or good. We all sometimes and for sure, that we make ourselves the God of our life, t...

Same shit, I am forgiving myself for not writing everyday, which I believe at the very least help me improve my vocabulary, and exercise my English proficiency skill. I caught myself doing somethings useless every now and then, I play games more often than reading in my free time, I have very challenging situation in me right now, I do not have any job that could help me survive my schooling, by the way, I passed the admission exam in law school, and I am about to enroll myself with my remaining money for the down payment and then make my very best to find a great job that could help me pay may tuition fee at the same time with time that could lend me for my schooling, and that I believe if the Lord will grant me a job in the government. There are lots of challenging I am see I will be facing, what I guess the things that improved in my is my patience, my positive outlook in way( crossed finger) I pray, that I do, because, the Lord lead me here in our little house with so much things n...

 I know that only God can tell what will happen to me tomorrow, in the next days, months and years of my life, but only I know is I do not hold my life, because death is inevitable and that I should be grateful for what I am experiencing. I am learning how to see things that happen to me in more positive outlook by looking at what can I learn from difficult things that I experience, perhaps I should call it not difficult but could also a challenges in my life, things that are not usually happening to me in a daily basis and I look at it as more challenging. I am seeing it now as a improving experiences in my life, I cried to the  Lord to help me, I pray that he help me, I ask Him to forgive me for what I said to Him for betraying Him and again, still asking for his help whenever I need, I always come to ask for help, and I do not have anyone to lean on. I do not know what will happen to all my plans, I am not even hundred percent sure if this is the right path I should take in...

 Procrastination again, My life has been so much laid back right now, but I am making myself a commitment to full blast my effort once I found out that I passed the law school. I should force myself to do what I need to do to improve myself, I am too lazy in my life, I do no know if I am really doing myself a favor, by doing all these decision in my life, I hope that God is guiding me my path for going to law school. What I really thinking is that I am really can do work and study law school?

It is too late for me to write, I should have been sleeping but I procrastinate, and now, whatin I just want to do in my life is, to play games, I do not know what I am going to do in the next day. I am jobless, and I do not know if I can face any challenges these days to come, of course I have no choice but to face challenges that will happen to me. The truth is I am overwhelmed by the fact that I have different life right now, I feel I have to do all the things for me to survive in a day. I live in a place where insects and wild animals are many, I just killed a small snake just this morning, I am saddened that I had to do it, I just think that if I am to release it, it will grow bigger and might go again in our place, in the other side of point of view, we are at the middle of the field and that it is just normal that there are lots of snakes out there, and that I have to be more familiar with these animals, and that I am hoping that it will not come over here again and might kill o...

 Right now I am experiencing different life that before, I decided to build a house for me and my mother who I am taking care off because she has stroke disease and half of her body is not functioning, I decided to go here for us not to spend our money for rent of house, but our situation here is much different from our place we are used. This is much harder than before, because this place is far, and it is in the middle of rice field, the roads are still rough, and actually muddy.  I am fortunate to have a motorcycle that I can use for us to but foods and as well as for me to travel, what is just challenging moment for me is, that because of the place is in the middle of muddy place, the things are always muddy, we do not have our connection in water district instead we use deep well, and manually we get our water thru pumping it, carry it in our house. There are lots of animals like rats and snakes, in the evening there are lots of insects biting us. We are far away from mar...

On the interview in Tonitalks by Tony Gonzaga on Youtube. Tony asked Baron this question, referring to the people who questioned his truthfulness about his changed personality and whole as a person, this is what he answer, Toni Says: Is this really the new Baron?  Baron answered: "I do not have to answer to anyone except my God, because only him and I have a relationship, and this relationship is very special one., nobody can take that away from me Toni" This is one of the very great conversation I will remember and want to remember of that interview on Youtube, that I want to share with you.