I am doing myself a favor

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It is too late for me to write, I should have been sleeping but I procrastinate, and now, whatin I just want to do in my life is, to play games, I do not know what I am going to do in the next day.

I am jobless, and I do not know if I can face any challenges these days to come, of course I have no choice but to face challenges that will happen to me.

The truth is I am overwhelmed by the fact that I have different life right now, I feel I have to do all the things for me to survive in a day.

I live in a place where insects and wild animals are many, I just killed a small snake just this morning, I am saddened that I had to do it, I just think that if I am to release it, it will grow bigger and might go again in our place, in the other side of point of view, we are at the middle of the field and that it is just normal that there are lots of snakes out there, and that I have to be more familiar with these animals, and that I am hoping that it will not come over here again and might kill our pet cats.

I do not know if I am making sense at all, the point I am saying is that the adjustment I am making now is hard, or maybe because I am not used to it, change is really constant, I choose to build our own house in order for us not to be more expensive, and that because I have no job already, we might as well, build our own house to cut the expenses but in exchange of more challenging life, not so comfortable place we will live, I am just afraid because I am with my mother and that she has a stroke and that she is now having a hard time, because we do not have electric water here and that we manually get out water to us for our hygiene is from deep well, there are lots of thing change in my life now. I hope that I can survive, other than that I am planning to go to law school and I need job already, I am going to pursue it. on Sept, 20, 2021, the result of examination will be posted and that the announcement is that on Sept, 27 will be the start of school, I hope that I have already a job that time. 

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