life is different

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 Right now I am experiencing different life that before, I decided to build a house for me and my mother who I am taking care off because she has stroke disease and half of her body is not functioning, I decided to go here for us not to spend our money for rent of house, but our situation here is much different from our place we are used.

This is much harder than before, because this place is far, and it is in the middle of rice field, the roads are still rough, and actually muddy. 

I am fortunate to have a motorcycle that I can use for us to but foods and as well as for me to travel, what is just challenging moment for me is, that because of the place is in the middle of muddy place, the things are always muddy, we do not have our connection in water district instead we use deep well, and manually we get our water thru pumping it, carry it in our house.

There are lots of animals like rats and snakes, in the evening there are lots of insects biting us.

We are far away from market, we have challenges in buying our clean water for our daily intake, because we can not drink the deep well, just to be sure. 

Stating this is not a negativity but just sharing things happening in our lives, but I guess, this will teach me much lesson in life, I hope that I could pursue my studies, and find a job as soon as possible, for me to have money to support my studies.

I hope that we could survive our lives here and that I hope life will be better soon.

I am looking at the bright side, I do not have any choice but to do this, I hope that life will be better soon. 

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