writing again

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Same shit, I am forgiving myself for not writing everyday, which I believe at the very least help me improve my vocabulary, and exercise my English proficiency skill.

I caught myself doing somethings useless every now and then, I play games more often than reading in my free time, I have very challenging situation in me right now, I do not have any job that could help me survive my schooling, by the way, I passed the admission exam in law school, and I am about to enroll myself with my remaining money for the down payment and then make my very best to find a great job that could help me pay may tuition fee at the same time with time that could lend me for my schooling, and that I believe if the Lord will grant me a job in the government.

There are lots of challenging I am see I will be facing, what I guess the things that improved in my is my patience, my positive outlook in way( crossed finger) I pray, that I do, because, the Lord lead me here in our little house with so much things need to be done, but we will crawl to survival in this house, since that the Lord allowed us here, maybe He will guide us, and provide whatever we need to survive.

I have a hard life right now than before, but I am more mentally fine than before, and I guess I am very thankful to this day, I have much problems in terms of financial and time management right now but still I have more fine mental health, it is just ironic that today, comparing than before, when I am working in Zambales I have a much positive outlook in life, and that these things that happen to me teach so much in life, and that this will not last for a long time, this will pass.

I am more positive and have a striving mindset today, because I am looking forward to learn and achieve my goals, I am things to worry, but I guess I should give it to the Lord.

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