Puso ko ay Siya

 I should tell this to myself, because I do not have any choice, but to do make it, I have nothing to go, but up. I've been in the bottom for my whole life, I keep on thinking what to do in my life. Maybe I am wrong for thinking too much, and maybe I am wrong for thinking all about my life, there are things I should be doing not, maybe I am not doing what the best out of my life, maybe I am forgetting to myself that I should enjoy the journey not the destination. Life is getting harder as we grow old, I am lately thinking about it, the time is running our, thinking that would I get what I want in my life, would I will be right by making this decision of my life, can I make it? these are the few things making my life miserable, or maybe making my life hard. really, when I am thinking what I have now, I've done great in my life, there are just few sacrifices and fall down that I may do right but anyway that is life I have chose to do.  There is a song beautiful scar, maybe this ...

I came here again, nice being back here again, I was not actually feel like writing today, as always I am not motivated to do it, but might as well write today for me to somehow exercise my little mind. Today, I want to write something about, what if, I will earn something from what I really love doing, just like this, write making a content. I want to do in life, that I love doing at the same time making a money for myself, because most importantly or at least in my current status, I will not able to survive, I will just sit here, writing nonsense like this, but then maybe somehow someday, this little dream of mine of becoming a content creator will somehow help me survive my everyday life, and if the God wills, I will become successful, writer, maybe right now I am not thinking about it, because it is so far from reality but somehow I am hopeful. today, I want to learn something like, making an application in android app that, that will create a money for me. I really like researchin...

 I decided to write today, because I want to share things. what is important decision in life, is it the right thing or the thing the makes you happy? when you were so burn out in life, in your job, what will be the right thing to do?  people who pressures you to do things that they think is the right thing to do but do not understand what struggle you are up to. is it really important what other will thing when the thing that you are sacrificing is your mental health. I am starting to get angry to the people who do not understand my situation. maybe in times of pandemic is it not the right decision to quit your job, but what if the only options you have are, die to quit your job. maybe the option you have right now is not because you are comfortable with your work but it is the matter of survival. you are struggle to survive day after day working with you current job not being happy, but you are forced to do it because you have responsibility in your family. you will not eat ...

 I just want to tell something now what I really need to tell myself about not giving up, there's a lot to learn and to do.  what is more important is it to plan or to do? yeah most probably nothing is more important that the two, because there are correlated to each other? what do I mean by planning and doing or executing the thing you planned. This two is so important for the success of the person? what does success mean? Also it varies from person to person. I just watched lately of rich people's lifestyle and somehow how they act and behave. I just realize how confident they are, but then I also seen them struggle because they are yet to achieve their success, I see that they too struggled and felt frustrated at some point of their lives.  this is what I've observed from them, and that this is purely opinion but then maybe somehow we could take note on this and that somehow too when we are already rich or succeed from what we are doing, maybe we could validate these t...

 Content Creator? how do I become a content creator that somehow be my fall back when I am taking the leap of faith in taking the law in the Philippines. What do I really want to do in my life? I have a low self esteem I do not know if I really trust myself on becoming what I want to be in this life. I want to someday reach my goal of becoming rich, I do know that for myself, I do not what to become the richest man on earth on even in the Philippines. This is absurd I know, I should not writing it, and that I am just thinking that I am dreaming of too impossible and this somehow define how low self esteem I have, that fact that even on my own self, I am defeating myself and limiting what I really want in life, where in I should not give limit to myself, because no one is judging me and that I have the right to dream even just saying it to myself. I've become like this because of the people around me, they criticizing me for my capability, but I am stubborn enough to fight for it, m...