we going to make it

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 I should tell this to myself, because I do not have any choice, but to do make it, I have nothing to go, but up.

I've been in the bottom for my whole life, I keep on thinking what to do in my life.

Maybe I am wrong for thinking too much, and maybe I am wrong for thinking all about my life, there are things I should be doing not, maybe I am not doing what the best out of my life, maybe I am forgetting to myself that I should enjoy the journey not the destination.

Life is getting harder as we grow old, I am lately thinking about it, the time is running our, thinking that would I get what I want in my life, would I will be right by making this decision of my life, can I make it?

these are the few things making my life miserable, or maybe making my life hard. really, when I am thinking what I have now, I've done great in my life, there are just few sacrifices and fall down that I may do right but anyway that is life I have chose to do. 

There is a song beautiful scar, maybe this is from my life, that I should love what happen to my life, it maybe worst that could happen to a person but then that's life after all, and that happening in our lives makes us more stronger.


My father died of cancer, I was sorry for him that I have not done good thing from him, mostly I blame him for what happen to our lives, but I just realize that all my life, my father wants from me is to be happy, making his effort to succeed but sadly it did not happen, but he is always for our good, today, I have only one parent my mother, she is a stroke patient who is half paralyzed body, I have only thing to do now to make her happy, maybe I am not a good son for her for most of my life, but right now she has appreciated me more that ever, my mother is kind and silent now maybe because of her situation, she is enjoying her life with us. I have thing to do now, hopefully I can give her what she deserve to have a mother for us, I am doing my effort right now to keep on doing what I need to do, for my mother, and maybe for my future, but currently  this is the life I am looking forward, to get my mother a house, I will be the one who will take her of her. 

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