my dream of becoming a

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 Content Creator?

how do I become a content creator that somehow be my fall back when I am taking the leap of faith in taking the law in the Philippines.


What do I really want to do in my life?

I have a low self esteem I do not know if I really trust myself on becoming what I want to be in this life.

I want to someday reach my goal of becoming rich, I do know that for myself, I do not what to become the richest man on earth on even in the Philippines. This is absurd I know, I should not writing it, and that I am just thinking that I am dreaming of too impossible and this somehow define how low self esteem I have, that fact that even on my own self, I am defeating myself and limiting what I really want in life, where in I should not give limit to myself, because no one is judging me and that I have the right to dream even just saying it to myself.

I've become like this because of the people around me, they criticizing me for my capability, but I am stubborn enough to fight for it, most of people around me I somehow think that they do not want me to succeed in life, maybe because they know I am taking my revenge against them, yes this is true I am going to get a revenge against people who look down on me, but not yet, but you know why I just can not do it, I want to tell all of them the someday I will succeed, but I right now I choose not to say a thing, just let them be, what makes them happy, I just noted their personality and their attitude towards small people, I know people who look down on their neighbor. I just realize somehow the Lord does not want me to harbor anger against those people, and that somehow not forgiving them will only stop me, blocking me from achieving my goal, that is why I prayed to the Lord, but I did not promise but I said that Lord please help me to forgive them, I always ask for forgiviness to the Lord, and I forgive those people who wronged me, but deep inside me, I really do not forgave them and that somehow sometime I will voice out my anger to them, that is why I did not promised to the Lord that I will not taking revenge, what I prayed that I want to forget and forgive them and that someone when I have already achieve what I want in life, maybe the Lord help me, the moment I open my mouth to say my revenge, I prayed that the Lord stop me from doing, I have had enough promising to the Lord because they are been broken many times, and that made me depressed and want to end up my life. I still do not know what to do in my life right now, I really want to become I lawyer someday, but I am finding a way to find a job that will help my achieve it, I want to be a content creator, a job of researching and writing, and reading.

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