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 What makes yourself life burning for something in your life,  there is difference between dreaming and actually doing what it takes to make that dreams come true. we have to dedicate yourself in achieving that goal of yours, There will be times that it sucks, it is so tiring to do it, but at the end of the day, the time that was spent which is used for for achieving that goal is fulfilling. There will be a lot of times that you do not know if you really doing what is right, there will be a lot of times questioning yourself in doing these things, you will doubt yourself, do we have to quit? do you have that strength, that is the answer, the Lord gave you that time but you did not use it for achieving that goal you keep on telling yourself to achieve. The Lord always there to give you time and strength you just need to use it efficiently.  So what do we need to do now, let do it. Thank you.

Fight When will you start, and when will you fight? A kind of fight almost assure your win, is there such thing? They say knowing your enemy is winning half the battle, how about learning what you are, and knowing you are making your own enemy, life is just full of battles to fight, we do not know what will happen tomorrow, you do not know when you are really prepared for battle, the everyday that the Lord made, is always full of struggles and battles that we have to face, but it is also a blessing from above, knowing that you are alive, what do you really want in life, or are you keep on walking the day, because the Lord gave it to you, have you think of the things that will actually make the Lord happy, what are you for, what are we for? I actually starting to learn that I do not have any rights to tell, on how a person should live, a how person should act, Am I thinking that I do not have any rights to tell others what to do, because I myself I do not know what I am for, is it fair ...

 What is life waiting for me? The question I always ask for myself, I am doing what I need to do, in order to achieve where I want to be in the future? I also make an excuses that the Lord will all do the necessary things if He allow it to happen, but I know for sure, and that I can take it if what happen to me is purely effortless on my end.  I know that the Lord can do it, but I think He will not do it, what I am talking about is, that the Lord will not give you that specific prayer you want to be or to have if you did not work on it, maybe sometimes Lord grant it in the mere prayer, but at the very least you have done your effort on prayer on it, just wish to have it. But that is not usually the case, We act and then God do the rest, it does not mean that the Lord will always grant your wishes, sometimes he has much better, by saying that he does not want that particular wish to be granted on you, but he did not allow it to happen. there some time that we get what we sow, a...

 It is hard to know if you really are tired or just being demotivated or even procrastinating. But I'd like to remind myself that there are times that you just do not do what you need to do, that sometimes you just need to do it before you know that you are not really tired, especially when you are fully rested yourself and that you just can control yourself getting back to work, or the things you need to work on. There are things that we do, just to fake ourselves that we really done well.  I am writing anything that coming from my mind, and that I really do not know what to do say or write, I write anything. Today, I would like to share by the way, that I already started my study in law, I am officially enrolled and that we have started our class last week. it is very overwhelming, the volume of jobs that I need to do, other than that I do not have a job, and those things are piled up in my head. I realize that I like studying at the same time that this course I chose to be ...

 October, 5, 2021 Yeah! boy! It is our first day of class and that I should write something today, by the way my class would be on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday, I would like to first tell you the things happen today, I search for a job today, pass my application in different government agency, since that I am eyeing to get a job in government since usually government agencies in the Philippines only operates from Monday to Friday, and has two- day off, and that that would be a perfect for me since I have classes on Saturdays. While, private companies in this country usually operates from Monday to Saturday, there are just few company do not operate or require employee not to work on Saturdays, that is why, I will have a hard time finding private company to have not requiring work on Saturdays, and that also I have my Civil Service Eligibility, I might want to work in Government. Another factor is that if ever that I have not finish my plans of becoming a lawyer, working ...

 I wonder why I am still asking my self these words, I wonder how and what I need to do in order for me to keep on improving. I wanted someone to be recognize as person who's intelligence in the different level, and that how people achieve this level. I am thinking right now that my mind is slowing down, I observe it , and I am thinking because of the medicine I am taking that is why I have this slowing down thinking which is I should not be having because I am going to enter law school, and this schooling needs a active brain. Maybe also that I am not focused right now for what should I be achieving. I can do it, whatever happens.