It is my responsibility

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 Today, I learned that your happiness is your responsibility in life,

I am still alive now, to do what makes me happy, I am sad because some people are trying to manipulate me to do what they want me to be, and not what I want to be in my life. I am worried right now, that I am moving to someone who wants to dictate my life, but I just do not have the much of a choice because they are someone who help me in my life, but I am angry and saddened that I am demotivated because of them, for their word that coming from their mouth about my plans in my life of becoming a lawyer.

But today, I learn something, that it comes to my mind that it is the rightful thing I must do, that I am the holder of my happiness, I am the worker of my future, I am the only one who is in charge of what life will give me, and that all the things happen to my life is because of me, and that if I am going to do what pleases me.

Things that happen to my life, is that I am the responsible to this, I may fail I have no regrets because I made it, and that I should not care what other people say as long as I am doing the best that I can do.

I want to write this as a reminder to my self that.

1. I am responsible for my happiness.

2. Do not care about other people say about you, your goal, you as a person.

3. Please, say what you heart wants to say, with respect just to take out those bad things that frustrates you. this is curse, and that pray to the Lord helps me with those demotivation that I will be hearing.

4. I will become a lawyer whatever happens, I do not care if I will die alone, as long as my family for all I know supports me with me plans. I have all what I need, and that is my family.


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