it is dawn

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 Yeah right, it is dawn already and that I am still awake, I do not know why I am still up, but what I am pretty sure is that, this is not good, and that I am not doing great since I failed the PNP application.

I do not know how will I share those things in my life, I laid for days now, and that I do not think this is doing any good to me, I am fighting to end this procrastination and laziness, I am stagnant as hell already, and that the clock is ticking I will be soon be financially broke.

But anyway, I will share in this writing what I learned, that I must need to read and write a lot when I am planning to become a lawyer, that is the first thing, the second thing is that I watch someone in facebook that stay in my mind for a while and hope someday, I will remember this short video and tell myself, I did it too.

So this is it, someone who is previously a janitor, passed the BAR, and become a lawyer, he shares about his family, and how they support him, prayed for him and he cried in tears with joy, that he passed the bar in just 1 take, he shares that he always pray to the Lord, you can see the humbleness in his face and his words, I salute him for that, he is about to become a lawyer, and for sure he has much learnings in those trials of his life, but then he keeps his feet in the ground, meaning he is down to earth person.

I also learn, something today, that the Lord helps those who help themselves, from Karen Davila blogs, with her words coming out her mouth, is all about wisdom, it is so encouraging to hear words from her, she also shared that she focused her career first and be stable before she settle for her own family, she become what she is right now because of her, hard work and perseverance with the help and guidance of the Lord, He allow those things to happen. 

I also remember what MS. Karen Davila says that the Lord allows trials and challenges for us to become more stronger and better person, I guess that the Lord is speaking to me, maybe, I hope so, and I pray too, that he allows me to fail to be more stronger and better person, and that he has a big plan for me in the future.

I am also a believer, that the Lord can change our lives in just snap of a finger, I really believe in this, and so that a reminder to me to trust the process of the Lord.

I am going to be a better person, a stronger person, to have more positive outlook in life in the future, I just need to work hard and be mindful of the things, be sensitive, I have done many bad things in my life, and that I hope that those people around me that I have done wrong, I pray for them to forgive me. 

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