I am frustrated

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 There is called different crime commission, but this is different from what I am going to write today.

I am always telling to this blog that I want to become a lawyer, since my plan of becoming a policeman does not happen, and now today, I am moving forward to my life, I guess, I am pursuing law school, just this evening I had the final interview from Bulsu college of law, this is the last step since I took a written exam from it.

This is the story,

a month ago I was not really sure about going to law school since I have a financial constrain and I am a jobless person, I pick to become a policeman instead, but apparently since I had shared it with you, that I failed miserably from this experience. 

Anyways, I took a written exam from BULSU College of law, I paid a admission exam, even I have not really sure of taking it, I took the chance of not getting the job of PNP, and sure enough it did not happen, so while I am in the process of applying in the PNP the College of law schedules our final interview and that I did not attend it, because I am quite sure that I am getting this job, and alas, I was not right, and that I failed the job and that I missed the chance of Interview, but then after moving on to my failure, I asked the Lord to forgive for trusting him, I am really sorry and that I feel distant from Him already, while I am writing this, but then I am really sorry. I hope that to all that I have said and done, I have faith that He is still with me no matter what.

Again, I thought I am too late for the schedule, I remember someone from the group and asked him if he had his interview, I learn from him that his schedule was moved, I also wrote a request letter of reconsideration for the final interview and reach out to someone in the school to be able to schedule a final interview and that was today.

I am hoping that maybe, I passed the final interview and that what I am going to do now is find a job that could survive my life, and my tuition fee, I know I have financial constraint as today, but what really bothers me is our house in mexico, where I am planning to live with my mother, because we are just going to tap our electricity from my relative, I felt that I have a big problem in come from my plan of studying because ever since I am with them, I have frustration, because they keep telling me not to study anymore because I am too old and that nothing will happen to this plan, I hope that this will not add up to my problem I hope that what I am going to struggle is the financial, I pray that every person in my family support my plan of becoming a lawyer, I just hope it happen.

Today, I am planning not to tell them that I am going to enroll myself, I keep on telling my self, If I am not going to pass this interview, then I am still going to take it next year. I just really want to happen it today, because the time is ticking and that I am not going any younger, but still I am pursuing my dream, I do not know what happen in the future, but still I am going to achieve that goal.

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