Can I ask a question

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 Yes, I do believe something in me that is not good in term of my attitude, I have this attitude where in when I feel confident, I tend to sort of mock people of maybe I look down on them, I do not know really but I guess I do it in my mind, for me to properly explain it, I will give an example. 

When I feel that I am unstoppable, I think of sort of saying bad things about people who mistreated me, who look down on me, and that I am thinking of a vengeance from them, explaining it further, I am guilty of this act, that as of now, I am just no one, and they, I suddenly think that when that time I already achieve my dream, I'm gonna go to the people who do not believe in me, who looked down on me, and that they will be ashamed that they do not believe in me, and that it will be a slap on their face, for them to think that I cannot achieve what I want in life, that is sometimes I am gonna do in the future, I know, or maybe at the very least for me it is not great, because I kind off defeat my praying of become a humble person, and that I ask God that I will do my  best to achieve my goal despite the things people around me who do not believe that I can do, and that I said to the Lord that, whenever I am becoming prideful, please make me humble, and punished me, teach me do become humble, and that I am praying to the Lord that help me not become revengeful about those people who do not believe in me rather just make peace of them, and hopefully relationship to those people will go better between them, that is why I told me self, that maybe I will not achieve my goal if I keep on thinking of revenge.

It really a great experience, that your success will all be your voice rather than keep on proving them that you can do it, but do it silently.

I really hope that I learn something from my colleagues, that I should not settle for less, I do believe in me, that I will not settle for less, but actually I am making my effort to achieve my very dream of becoming a lawyer. 

I am happy to just think of it, I know it is not just a dream, but it is a constant struggle of living my life and the life of my journey, from the start and to the time that I finally achieve it, will not end there, but at least I find that goal I am always dreaming of, I do not know what will happen, will that time will make me even happier, or maybe, I am still not contented and still finding what I want to do in my life, or maybe I will regret it, and say to myself that I should have marry while I am still younger, because people around me keep telling my that this is the time I should marry and build a family. 

Anyways, what I want to share is that whatever happen in my life, I should be humble, and keep my feet in the ground, make peace to those who do not believe and cherish people who truly with me in me struggle finding my goal, but anyways, I am doing what I can do to achieve my goal.

There is a reason, maybe I am praying that, God did not allow me to become a policeman, because he wants me to become a lawyer.

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