I'll talk about things happen today

-

 I am so excited to see my new bought speaker for my bass guitar, and upon reaching home I quickly try it, and I just realize that I cannot play well than before. It is really true about law of atrophy, what you do not use will lose someday, and that I am little by little cannot play even before I become intermediate bass player, it is sad to know it, but then I realize this will happen in some other thing, so like what I am trying to improve my writing skills I took this opportunity to write anything right now.

I will try to maintain my progress of learning, like I am integrating to myself that when I have not read anything in a day, especially when I am not taking a rest or taking a vacation, I feel sad and down. I want myself to read even 1 article just to exercise my brain in a day. 

I still set aside thing, when I felt I am burn out, I can still set things aside like, in a day to escape from my reality, and just look away from things I believe could help me achieve my goal just to recharge myself.

Today, I will share some of my sentiments about my boss, and that I am telling you this not because I hate him, yes I hate him for a record because he has been insinuating something to me, to how my role to the family, he has been colonializing our life because he think that we are in debt to their family, maybe it is true that we are in debt because of their help but not to certain level that we are already their own, as if we are just dogs.

I have been witness how he is, and that I just confirm that this person has Narcissistic personal disorder, this person who always asking for approval, with a self-centered and very self-importance in him, and that he will visibly be annoyed if someone will not always make him superior to others, very manipulative person, a person who always talk about himself, about his achievement long ago, and that even in the topic that he should not be uplift, he will always make his way to be the talk and that he will visibly get annoyed or he will not forget about that person that took his throne.

I am most certainly about this personality of him, I am even more convince right now after all that I realize, and that sometime he make himself and tell other how humble he is, but in the end what he wants others to see is how good person he is, he is a very manipulative person, I hope and pray that I learn how to deal this kind of person and that I hope to quickly escape from this kind of person.

I ended my writing for a minute and then I came back here to edit just to share what I felt, I felt a little relieve but then I felt self pity about people who are narcissistic after reading things about them, and that actually felt sad because I was able to say these things to this people who actually help us a lot, really I am sorry but I just cannot stand his personality, I feel sad because I think he keep pushing himself to greatness but actually not happy in his current situation, I clearly see that he cannot gave up his position because he just cannot help himself to be in the bottom again, because he portray himself a powerful and in greatness, but too pressure in life that he just cannot take what other will think of him when gave up all the things he has. I am sorry for him. I pray that the Lord renew him. I am not ending my letter, I am not perfect person, but I am most certainly right about him, because I have known him for so long that people around him are having a hard time pleasing him but because all people around him are asking for his help, and that cannot tell criticism about him, and that we all know, we just cannot tell to each other what is the problem with this person, because we value our work, because he is our boss.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

In this world cruel world

-
In this world that the one who has money has the power, the man who has money has the influence, has the right over poor people. The person who has money has right to mock other people. In this world that man that has money can own a huge number of lot, huge number of house who they can investment. Slavery is still here, we are in 20th century, but power over man is still here, I am even talking about racism, it more than that because slavery is still here. Money can talk, money can buy every material thing in this world, and if you a poor person with no dignity, you can sell yourself bought by called money. If you do not own a house, you will call yourself a poor, and you are a poor dreaming to be rich someday, you have to walk through every obstacles you will face, and that is not going to be easy, because this is a cruel world. People with power know that you are striving to get out of mud, they know it, and not every rich person willing to help you with it, some of them w...
Read more

I found a new house

-
July, 6, 2020 Today, After a week of finding a new house to rent, finally I found it, several people and checked their house to rent, and finally I hope that this one is that the Lord guided me here, I pay 8500 pesos for my deposit and advances, there will be some adjustment due to price of bill that I will pay monthly, but I chose this because I felt unsecured in my previous place, that place is price wise, because it only cost 2,200 pesos unlike this current house I am staying right now 4,250 a month exclusive electric and water bill to estimate it maybe I a lot 5 thousand pesos a month, that would be a great cut to my salary and savings, just to add up this one I found is not actually expensive it is just the previous house is just too cheap in this city, it is just there is an history of suicide and there is weird guys next to my room, so I think I should be thankful I somehow feel safe right now even I am still adjusting because I have another housemate but for my first impres...
Read more

I told myself

-
June, 24, 2020 Still working on it, but I need to be consistent, Woah! just wrote my father's day letter day's ago, I was amazed to have 22 views, what I felt is a little happy because someone read my blog, supposedly it was for the purpose of practicing and memory of me writing and of course memory of my father, I wrote what I feel, I actually don't proof read my blog because I write it without thinking too much about grammar, but then when I saw that the views are increasing, I 've said I was insecure that maybe the reader will find many mistake in grammar, so I proof read it and did my best to reconstruct the paragraphs, since I was not fluent in english and likewise how I write stories and sentences, I can't sleep that night because I was also thinking how the reader will see me as person, but anyway, it is my life, and I learn that part of life is learning to accept what other people gonna say to you and face it without fear, because it is part of your progre...
Read more