how are you there?

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 It is been a while that I haven't write anything in this Blog, I hope that anyone will read this is fine too. 

Albeit this writing does not make much impact of people's lives, I write this particularly to improve my writing skills, and that hopefully someday I will be able to write eloquently, I am doing little effort for myself in everyday, I may not be that consistently on my eagerness to learn, but I am doing effort everyday of my life to improve myself. I write everything that comes to my mind, most frequent and certainly they do not make any sense, and that I am asking for your forgiveness for wasting your time, I just want to you to know that I believe that due to repitition we learn, even in the Bible, you need to keep on praying without ceasing even God know what is your prayer even before it comes to your mouth and mind. 

Today, I just need to write and write and write even I don't have anything to say, I actually I have something to share with you and that upon writing this I realize that I could share some of my experiences in life, just weeks ago I decided to share some to someone I trust with but just to learn it that this person shares it with other too, and that he ruin my trust in him. I was so angry days before and that I am writing some of bad words, things that hurtful to myself, and that I am taking my revenge someday. 

They made me a laughing stock of them. I choose not to speak up, I take it with me my anger, I wrote my  hatred in them, not to the person who ruin my trust, but I most hating the person who made fun of me, he is my boss and that I am working for him, I was able to get in the job because of him, and we were able to survive our problem with my father's disease because of their family's help, but I just want to tell that I am a free man and nobody owns me, I may be in debt of him because I was able to get the Job because of him, just to tell you that everything I do in my work is because of my effort, I did not even use his name to be in better position, I strive to pass the job training work from the bottom of my job, learn it from the scratch and right now I am more able and stable in term of knowledge about this Job, in short, the only thing that I am in owe of him is the referral of him to about the opening of the job, I am thankful and prayed for this job almost 5 years ago, I was able to get it, and even struggle to learn the job, assigned far away from my parents, without anyone I know in the place I did not even realize I will work. and now that I am about to take a leap of faith, resigning this year, to pursue my dream, I am focusing on how will I be able to achieve my dream of becoming a lawyer, I have saved few penny that could help me a lot while finding another job, and as of now I am still working on where will I enroll this year for my school. I have said a lot of things that may not make any sense right now, but I'll end up my letter here. 

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