Listening to song

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Sometimes songs can help you with your loneliness

Best escape from you very vague dreams, on how will you decide which path you take, is it the hard one, the uncertainty or the comfort zone you are all been there, stagnant and letting the days go by.

but you know what I want to tell my self that whatever happen to my decisions, if it may fail I should forgive my self for not making it, I should be more forgivable to myself , this has been the thing that I am saying to myself long time ago, but it just little by little sink to myself, that I should forgive myself for all the things I done in the past, It has all been done and that I can't do anything about it anymore.

And if it succeed, and turn out that I did not really do what I really love doing, I should still forgive myself. I have too hard to myself, I always look the things in very hard way, I always make myself faulty in every I've done, what really should I be doing is to learn to love myself with all the imperfection I've done in mylife, for the last time, I am saying this because I'm a boastful person, lifting my own self but rather I want to teach myself to be humble, and that I have been teaching myself, praying to the Lord that make me humble before Him.

From now own every time I remember all the faulty things I've done in myself, I quickly say to myself that I should forgive myself for what I've done, and that I already been asking the Lord to forgive me for what I've done and that I also forgiven the people who have done bad things to me, for this I will improve myself not to waste my time thinking on how will I change those things, but rather I let it there, and that I cannot do about it anymore, maybe the Lord has somethings to do in it, or maybe I can redeem myself for all the shameful things I've done to myself. 



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