To tell you honestly

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 Today 

I force my self not to think of anything right now, because I am tired physically and mentally, I drove 8 hours straight for more than 300 kilometers today, I am not there to tell you why I am sad or maybe because I am tired, I am so exhausted to negativity and negative people, I know I have been very incompetent to myself that I am not improving myself anymore, but I also thought to myself to be humble, because I believe that the Lord will lift me up someday for being persevering to all the challenges that come to my life.


I just looking forward to new career next year, that I really want to quit my work, and that I pray to the Lord that will help me with my path on becoming a lawyer, just thinking to be a lawyer someday makes me excited and afraid at the same time even in the very moment that I am exhausted.


I know to myself that I am procrastinating to the goal I want to be someday, thinking about this drain me as well, but not doing something that make me near to my goal is also very frustrating, but I told my self that once I entered law school I should be giving my full effort to do it, just today I am giving my self time to realize all the things that will change after I quit my job.



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