Puso ko ay Siya

 TODAY, NOV. 20,2020 Today, I just realize it is my father birthday, he has been long gone, actually not that long ago, but it feels like I still have a father but just to thinking right and sane, I dont have any father at all, it was sad to think of it, but that is just life. In life, no matter what happen to you, still you have to get going. What will happen the next day is not the thing you can predict, hoping for the best and to find happiness, often times, it came to my mind what really happening in my life today. there were things that happened which I cannot undo, and to think about it all the time, thinking of what happned in the past will only make me depressed. Still I thank God that I am still alive, that I chose to get going and fight the life that the Lord gave me today, I do sometimes, know what lack of me, that makes me like this, unmotivated, a person who do not have a clear path, a failure and a lonely man, but then I realize, maybe this is part of life, I may not ...

 Today,  11/11/2020 I read something in the news, about the Philippines and the Government, I asked myself, why is it that every time I read news about Government, I always have an impression of negativity, that our Government is a corrupt country. I know this attitude of me has done me harm that better, and that I should be looking at the bright side and positivity, but I was being open minded that, what was the reason that I always see myself, looking at the Government of some negativity, that I already loss my trust in every agency of the Government, I always see them as incompetent and lazy people. I see them as a corrupted people from their culture, and that deceiving people in order for them to uplift their incompetency every time they do a good deed. I those projects and acts as way for them to uplift their selves to the truth that their not really doing their job and that the money they are getting are not worth of their work. The problem with this is that  I am t...

Today, 11/9/2020 We I am talking about committement, I always fail myself to do it, still I am fighting myself about it, that I should be doing something more producting, doing something to myself to improve, and doing favor to myself that I should be more better each day. I should be forgiving myself for all the things that I've done in the past, that I should learn to accept what happen to my life, I should learn to ask God's wisdom, and let all alone give it him when finally says to myself that I surrender all to Him. I am fighting back to myself, I should remind myself that the only one I am competing with is to myself, I always look to myself that I am still not worth it, I am not doing any better, and in that I am sorry to myself that I am too much hard to myself, that I should learn to forgive myself for making myself much stressed because of the failure I am keep doing. Lastly, I have to remind myself that all is well, all is going to be well , maybe not today or tomorr...

 November 3, 2020 Today is my Birthday, I do not know where to start, but I should be doing it because somehow this is the day that I will declare my decision to do, I close my eyes for a second and prayed that the Lord blessed this day and this writing, may God see this also as my prayer, for all my flaws and sins I thank him for the guidance he has given to me, to my family, and to my career. God always guiding me, I've not been attending church for months and that I felt guilty about it, but still somehow I know deep in my heart he is guiding me to my decisions in life, I have faith on this, that He has been talking to me every time I have a decision to make. Today, I should be happy and that I pronounce my plan to this platform, as my written contract that I will be achieving something in my life that I wanted to be in the future. I fear of doing it, I am still not confidence of doing it, but I know that God wants me to do something in my life, and that I will not doing my plan...