Since I wanted to be a lawyer

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 Today,

October 27, 2020


I am sorry to myself that I still not consistent on writing in order for me to understand, I know that this gets annoying because I have told this to myself that I should be consistently writing in order for me even a little will do me an improvement, I really do not care if I writing thing grammatically incorrect, what I am up to is maybe writing anything will do me an improvement.

Anyway, here I am again my thoughts right now is about law school, justice in the Philippines and all stuff about laws and things about on how will I become a lawyer.

Maybe I am so far away from reality, in achieving this dream, and day after day as I start to doubt myself that I am so far away from learning things about on how to become a lawyer, before I even started to search about on how to become a lawyer in the Philippines, what I am worrying is about my financial capability but right now after weeks of starting to learn about it, I am starting to doubt myself on the subjects of laws school, but just a benefit of a doubt maybe I am getting hard time because no one is guiding me on learning, I mean, I am not yet enrolled because as I've search the nearest date on enrolling to law school is already next year, but then since I want this I need to start learning.

I already bought some books, the R.A no. 3815 which is Revise Penal Code of the Philippines, the R.A no. 386 the " An act to ordain and institute of the Civil Code of the Philippines and lastly the 1987 Philippine Constitutions.

There are still lot of books I need to study, and as a glimpse of these books, it is far away for me to understand, I also researched that law school their way of learning is Socratic Method which as I understand is that students are learning of their own way, on their own capability to learn, but then as I am here am still not giving up, I know and that I am sane to know that I still have a lot to learn, but then little by little I am getting there maybe I am million away from the destination but then I should get there.

Luckily these times information are much more reachable because if the internet.

Right now, everyday I need to motivate myself to learn even slight way on achieving my dream, I am evaluating myself everyday why I want this dream, everyday I read things that demotivates me not to tackle the path of law school.

Yesterday, I start to read cases happen in real life in the Philippines, the 2nd case I've read in my road to achieving my dream demotivates me because the case I read hit me hard on how ugly the justice system happen in the Philippines, how propaganda and hidden facts manipulate by these powerful people, the Chong Sister Murder case, where one of the body is not fount up until now.

the Case of  Paco Larranaga of GR no 138874-75, where 9 persons are guilty beyond reasonable doubt, what is actually demotivating is that there is already 40 people in favor of the defendant paco that he is not in the place when the crime happen, but then only one witness of the crime where the judge actually favored, and what is sickening to know is that one of the two missing body of chong sister found but the mother of chong sister cannot identify if it is her daughter, in that case the defendant wanted the body to DNA if that really the body of the missing victim, but the judge refused to, and the news circulated that even the lawyer of the defendant got jailed, after years of in jail sentenced to them up to 40 years of reclusion perpetua, the accused launched a documentary that how he is wrongly accused of the crime.

I still do not know about it and it frustrated me to learn that because of this judge iif it is true that they are not really committed the crime they have waste their life in prison just because of this shit justice in the Philippines.

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