perfect is only a word

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Today,

Junly, 14, 2020


I did not wrote anything yesterday and I feel that I miss the chance to learn, I have thought of many things to write but then I did not do it, and eventually forgot about it.

Today, I work 12 hrs, I went out of house in 9 am and came home at 8 pm, It was so tiring day but a productive day, I got to experience talking with someone and learn something from them from what life is about, that even in riches there is still problems and there is no guarantee of happiness, while you just can't look down on people who have not much of cash but has all what he needs in life.

My housemate in my current apartment has decided to go home and luckily that her home is near to my area that I visited every now and then, I told her that if she want I can drop her in their house, that is 146 kms away from our home here in Olongapo. She happens to work here but recently resign and wanted to take a break and go home.

I do not know how her life story and what are her problems and if she ever experiencing financial problem but if she shoulder her own expenses without her parent's support while not having a job is definitely hard, so we went to their house, what is so amazing life she has in their place is that, the place is far away from urban, they reside in walking distance in shore they can always find food in the ocean, they a have simple life, a small but very clean and simple house, they own a wide space of lot that can carry several big trees of mangoes, different fruit trees, vegetables and animals, so basically they have all what a person need in order to survive in every day, they do not need money. Her parent is working as professor in school in the town, I do not think they are short in money, but then I actually think that they do not have any option but to work in city in order to find much greater opportunity, build their own dream and learn from these things, it is just amazing that they have always a fall back, if they tired of working in the city they can always go home a take a break and do not need money to eat because all they need are in their place.

What is so ironic is that we people strive to get rich and find good job, own a property just to satisfy our self, to feel that we have done things for ourselves, to sink in our mind that we have learned from  our experiences, we keep on reaching our goals, competing to other people and to ourselves, chasing people and opportunities just to find security in life, food, shelter and most importantly happiness and peace, but little did we know that some people had it already, but failed to see it, that they all have what they need in life.

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